the unborn desire
In the middle of the chaos of moving alone to a new flat I discovered I was pregnant. I never had this special feeling in my life of becoming a mother.
But something was wrong, the pregnancy was progressing but according to doctors there was an absence of an embryo (Anembryonic gestation). In the end, no need to worry about all the above. It was a big relief.
But after the operation to remove what was left of this “false pregnancy”, things turned out even worst. I suffered from episodes of great depression, I could cry during a whole day, I would get very angry with my partner and with the whole world and what is worst, I was not sure anymore that I didn’t want to have a child. Maybe it would be ok to have one.
Maybe the unborn desire of having a child was being born.